Sup, this started of as me ranting about media to make half an hour go past so I can watch casualty. But it ends up as my life story :L
I think some media is good like the guys that show what a retard gaddafi is. However I hate media that ruins peoples lives, the media that constantly harrasses them and then says complete rubbish about them, to the point that even when they are proven innoccent some of the public still give them abuse. If i'm ever famous I will happily punch an annoying journalist :L.
Gossipers are like media they hear crap and spread it even if they are clueless about if it's true or not. So i guess gossip and rumours can ruin lives too. It's bit of a weird way to look at it but still.
I suppose a rumour nearly ruined my life at one point so I tried to give the gossipers something else to spread and talk about. I became very strange. It's not a good thing that sometimes I can be a bit too energetic and weird and stuff but I had to give gossipers something else to say about me because the first rumour literally made my life hell. Now I cant stop doing what I do, it's become a part of who I am because im so used to it and put under pressure to do things. But I was never like that before. Well I was a bit (I think everyone has a bit of loco in them) but no where near as much as now.
The way I see it my life is like monopoly and I'm constantly going to jail (being strange at times) as a result of me trying to sort out being bankrupt (the first rumour). But the whole game starts again in September when I go to a new college and move on because I won't be under that constant pressure by people to do stupid things that they know I'm capable of. Then i just end up looking like a mug. Hopefully I never get stuck in a trap like this again because now it feels like nobody actually wants me, people just want to laugh at me not with me. Now people are getting bored of it, yet sometimes they end up asking for more :L.
I suppose I've messed up to the maximum because what I'm about to reveal kills me but proves it. It has got to the point where I do nothing during school holidyas, halfterms and weekends. I feel like gadaffi no one wants me yet I just carry on as if nothings going on. Come to think of it I think loneliness motivates be to be even stranger at times although deep down I know strangness is what got me here in the first place. Me and gaddafi live really weird lives :L. Humans are nothing without love so me and gaddafi are screwed :L.
My 7 years bad due to breaking a mirror should either have ended already or will be over soon :). So maybe after September or before then all will change. Thats my depressing messed up life really :L You probably couldn't care less but it had to be explained from my point of view. That's the truth. Safe
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